My roses are dead my violets are not blue but can I still say I love you?
I have started writing again but my time away from this blog has been for a reason. Only God knows the deepest of deepest inner heart feelings. Continuously broken and mixed. Wondering of doubts and closeness. God is truly The only one who I can go to, my father my all-time prince of peace.
A while ago I was listening to a podcast by pastor Craig Groeschel from Life Church. He was talking about encouraging yourself and how to stay positive in life. I don’t remember everything from the sermon but one thing that I do remember is when he start declaring his interdependence in Christ. I wrote it down and made it a little bit my own interdependence. The funny thing is that last year at the conference of my church he was there too and he and he talked about the same declaration. I decided to share this with all of you and, it could be that you already know it but if you don’t know it, you can make your own twist to it and declare this declaration day in, day out.
Keep on sowing your seed, for you never know which will grow—perhaps it all will. – Ecclesiastes 11:6 (TLB)
Recenly I got a revelation from God. I was working in a large department store for a famous parfume brand named Viktor & Rolf. My colleague and I needed to promoot the latest fragrance of that brand. We were dressed up in the most adorable outfit specially created by the designers V&K.
“Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5
I have been writing about waiting on God and what that means to me. One thing that I have learned during my sabbatical journey is that I have to depend on the Lord always. Before I knew my husband, I was always the independent woman and also I was not a person who would ask anything from anybody. Not my family, not my friends, I would do it all on my own. I would always say I was born on earth alone so why should I ask anything from anybody.
“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.”
Proverbs 16:9 NIV
That is exactly what happened with us. We were so excited, we had plans, but God had something else planned for us. I have been silent for a few months now. I’ve not been posting anything on WordPress. I have been listening to God just in silence.
Let me tell you about my experience in Malaysia starting with Kuala Lumpur short version KL. First of! The flight was horrible, this time we got sprayed in the airplane instead of the eye lacer treatment like in Hong Kong. Kuala Lumpur International airport is located in Sepang. The airport hotel in Sepang, where my husband and I stayed in for our first night, was worse than our flight and not to mention the airport shuttle…. Rollercoaster! In the end we made it to our hotel…. There was evening, and there was morning—the second day.